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Eowyn's Heart

The name of this blog is based on the character Eowyn from Lord of the Rings because I strongly identify with her on many levels. The purpose of this blog is to proclaim the glory of my Lord and King through His work in conforming me into the image of His Son, Christ Jesus. In all things, I trust you will see His hand at work.

Monday, May 29, 2006


Last week I finished the 18-CD series on Israel from Tom Nelson of Denton Bible Church. I gotta tell you - it's an eye-opener! It's truly amazing how the *whole* of the Good News and every foundational doctrine is so clearly laid out throughout the Old Testament. Just studying the Hebrew Scriptures one can clearly see election, salvation by grace ALONE, the sufficiency of Scripture, and so much more.

Another thing Tom expounded on was not just the repetitive nature of God's dealings with Israel - blessing - rebellion - judgement - repentance - blessing . . . but He also delved into the WHY - what the rebellion was, what particular rebellions brought on particular judgements. Moreover, he noted similarities in the rebellion of America - fortunately for us, God is amazingly patient. Judgement is coming, however. Most assuredly, if we do not turn our hearts toward Him.

He also brought it down to the individual - because how God deals with the nations is how God deals with individuals. His teaching has been emphasized by the teaching I've been getting at church recently too - the particular subject of Hell, Who's going there and Why. There are those - many, unfortuntately - who will in the day of judgement cry out, "Lord, Lord did we not do" this or that "in Your Name?" and He will say "Depart from Me, I never knew you!" Because it is not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy, He saved us. Moreover, He does not save just because someone "believes" in Him - "the demons also believe - and tremble." He saves because the faith He grants generates belief that results in SUBMISSION to Himself as LORD. This is taught from Genesis on.

Universal Studios

I went with my buddy Mark today :-) Really fun. Tomorrow I get to go with my sister and her family :-) I'm gonna need to get back to work to recover from my "vacation"!! :-P

Oh, and . . . I really *hate* scarabs!!!!!

Car Alarms

I really hate it when people set their car alarms and then don't pay attention to when they're going off . . .

Saturday, May 27, 2006


Friends are such a blessing! There's a group of us that gather weekly to potluck dinner and play games. Tonight was my turn to host, so everyone came here - what a great time we had! :-)

Friday, May 26, 2006


My brother's wife delivered their second son, Jonathan Michael yesterday morning at 9:11 a.m. :-) 6 lbs 8 oz. 19 inches! Dan (my brother) says little Jonathan is a sweet, calm-natured little boy - sleeps a lot - which is good for tired mommy and daddy - and quite the change from their first baby, Benjamin, who rarely slept more than 3 hours at a time for months! Pics on my new nephew as soon as their available.

That same day at around 3:25 p.m. my good friend Bonnie delivered her second child - this one a girl - Charis Elizabeth :-) Bonnie's posted her announcement with pics: http://www.macroped.com/users/avallach/charis/.
Caution, the pics are not dial-up friendly, but she's a really beautiful little girl.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006


I've got about 1/2 an hour before the Season Finale of LOST - which I am anxiously awaiting - so I figured I'd share a few thoughts.

Thought 1: Erghh, the link to reply to my friend Mark's blog is not working for me again!!! Seems I'm the only one who has trouble with this . . . I think it's a conspiracy . . .

Thought 2: I'm t-i-r-e-d! I mean really, really tired....

Thought 3: Israel - wow! As noted in an earlier post, I'm listening to a tape series on the history of Israel. I thought there were only 16 CD's and was a little saddened this evening when I put #16 in the player - I really don't want the series to end - it's so rich. To my pleasant surprise, I was wrong - there are 18 tapes in the series :-) So another day or two of this rich feast await!

Thought 4: Mah Jong awaits. I downloaded a free version a little bit ago - I love this game. Think I'll play for a bit before LOST starts :-)

See ya :-)

Gas Mileage

I'm getting 28 mpg! And that's mostly in-town driving. Considering that's the top efficiency for my vehicle, I'm pretty stoked about it :-)

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Catching up

I've used this title before - "Catching up" . . . seems to be the story of my life all too often :-) It's a hazard of keeping busy I suppose. Anywho - lots to catch up on. I've been wanting to post for a long time but I've had other priorities so this keeps getting put off. My dishes are done, my laundry is done (except for some ironing that can wait), I'm not having company today so the straightening up can wait, so I'm going to take some time to do a little sharing :-)

Life, in general, is going really well. God has blessed me in more ways than I can count. I have a great job - just finished the "re-design" of our company website. You can see it at www.dawsonco.com. The re-design that I did was all in the background coding - the actual look of the site is, for the most part, same as the original. We moved our hosting from the company that designed the site for us (www.ccsinteractive.com) to www.networksolutions.com. The problem was that the original site had a back-end database for managing changes I wanted to make. With the transfer over to network solutions, the backend had to go and I had to incorporate the information into the coding of each affected page (which was most of them). This was a really challenging process as I started out knowing absolutely nothing about HTML. I'm no expert yet, but I've learned enough to maintain our site and I'll be learning more as we make some additions, some improvements, and as we move towards e-commerce (possibly as soon as June/July!).

I have a great church too. Who could ask for anything more than to sit under the teaching of one of the greatest pastors of our day? But I get more - God is so very good! I have a wonderful Fellowship Group with so many opportunities to be involved in ministry - the thing I have to be careful with here is to not get too many irons in the fire. So often, if a need comes up and it's something I know I can technically do, I volunteer - not considering that I just don't really have the time and energy to do it. Being technically qualified doesn't mean we're always called to fill a need - I have to re-learn that lesson a bit too often :-P

Moreover, I get to hear sermons from other great pastors. This last week I have been absolutely entranced by a series on Israel by Pastor Tom Nelson of Denton Bible Church. It's a 16 sermon series and I'm on CD #9. Through this series, I am learning and being convinced of the amazing patience & mercy of a righteous and holy God. I am learning the consequences of disobedience - and the blessing of repentance. I am learning more about how God deals with the nations and with His people - how we, as gentiles, are blessed through the Jews. (By the way, I now know I'm a Japhethite!) The ultimate blessing, of course, is in Christ as our Savior and Lord, but there is much more. I encourage you to check out the site and this series.

So, down to the nitty gritty - what God has been teaching me these days. My last post, a couple of weeks ago, hinted at the work God is now doing in my life. I went to a retreat with my fellowship group from church at the end of last month. It was really wonderful. The facilities were beautiful, the view out my hotel room window was soothing and refreshing (a gardened waterfall), and the teaching was exactly what I needed at this time in my life. I probably wouldn't have gone if our worship team hadn't been scheduled to lead music during the retreat - financially it was a bit of a strain - but in the end, it was worth so much more than I was required to give for it! I am a different person today than I was the day I arrived at the hotel.

The teacher was Chris Peterson - a young associate pastor, graduate of The Master's Seminary, and full of the fire of God's Holy Spirit. His teaching was impassioned and totally Biblical. He taught on Wisdom. I don't have time right now to break down the overwhelming amount of information he provided, but the end result for me was a realization that I have slowly and surely been commiting spiritual suicide - and I didn't even know it. To "nutshell" it - I am a very independent, capable young woman. Some might even envy me as I pretty much "have it all together" and I have a really great life. The problem, however, is that I am independent and I perceive myself as capable. Now, if you're like most people, you really don't see the problem yet. So let me spell it out for you - If I am so capable, why do I need God? If I'm self-sufficient, self- sustaining, self-reliant - where is the need for God in my life??

For years I have struggled with developing a regular quiet time of prayer and Bible reading. I've always known I "should". I just never really had the motivation. I didn't see my NEED. Our speaker, Mr. Peterson, exposed my need. One example he gave will stay in my mind for forever: ***CAUTION: This is a bit graphic*** You know how an eskimo kills a wolf? They place a sharp blade in a block of ice and bury it in the ground. They layer a small amount of blood over the ice. The wolf comes and licks up the blood. In the process, the ice melts and the wolf, unknowingly, licks the knife. Pretty soon it's not the blood that the eskimomo laid down that the wolf is licking, it's his own. The wolf bleeds to death, drinking his own blood. In a spiritual sense, the gifts, skills and talents the Lord has given us or given us opportunity to learn can be like the blood the eskimo lays down. Ice is the deception of our hearts. Self is the knife in the ice. (my personal metaphoric correllations, not the speakers) When we are SELF-sufficient and SELF-reliant and SELF-confident and any other "SELF" thing you put in there, we become like the wolf licking up our own blood, spiritually speaking.

All we are, every good thing we have, every good thing we know, every good thing we can do, think or say comes ONLY from the Lord. It is not of ourselves! "I" am not generous, kind, intelligent, wise, capable, or any other good thing - only God is. As Paul said, ". . . nevertheless I live, yet not I, but Christ liveth in me"! So now I see my need. I can only be righteous through Christ - through the knowledge of God - through TOTAL dependence on Him. I do not say that I have attained to this yet - only that the Lord has brought me understanding and is teaching my heart to learn dependence.

Here is where I now see the value of personal, daily time in the Word and in prayer. How can I depend on someone I don't know? The only way to know God is through His revelation of Himself in Scripture. Prayer is the conduit through which I confess my inability to know Him and to worship and serve Him as He ought to be worshiped and served. So often I have come to the Word not seeing the relevance of learning about one Biblical hero or another - and that's because my focus was wrong. I am learning to come to the Scripture to see God as the hero - to see Who He is through his work in the lives of these individuals. To hear His wisdom in the Proverbs and to see His greatness in the Psalms. Moses, Abraham, David, Daniel, Joseph - these are not the heros or the point of the stories that contain their names - GOD is the point! God is the hero! His character is revealed in His dealings with these men and with the wicked men we read about.

Here then is motivation - to learn about my God so that He might create in me a heart of righteous reverence and respect (a.k.a. "fear") for Him, so that I might grow in wisdom ("for the fear of the Lord is the begining of wisdom") and understanding, so that I might be totally dependent upon Him, seeing myself in a truer perspective to my God.

So, for the last two weeks, with the exception of only 1 day, I have spent daily time with the Lord in His Word. I'm not where I'd like to be on this yet - I'm too much of a night owl and I need to learn discipline in getting to bed at a reasonable hour so as to leave myself more than 5-10 minutes with the Lord in the mornings. I'd like to have a full 1/2 hour at least. This is my first goal. My prayer is simply this - that I would learn total dependence upon God - that He would expose the secret places where I am independent and self-reliant and root those out of my heart. I hope you will make that your prayer as well.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Psalm 100:5

I spent some time this morning in Psalm 100 and meditated on the first part of verse 5, "For the Lord is good".

Recently I've come to realize that the reason I keep myself so busy (I've always got too many irons in the fire) is a gripping fear that, if I slow down, stop, and think, I will find only emptiness. This is a crippling fear and results from a deadly deception of my untrained heart.

In Psalm 5 I was reminded of the truth - that the Lord I serve is GOOD. Therefore I can trust Him and, if I will slow down, stop, and think, when the emptiness comes, I will find Him waiting in the void.